Starting Over at 29

The Power of Starting Over: It's never to late to begin again.

Shoshin: A Beginner’s Mindset

There’s a Japanese word that I love. Not only because it sounds like my name, which… is truly wild, but it truly embodies everything that I am approaching life with at this current moment. It’s the idea that you should approach everything with a beginner’s mindset. There’s no judgement, only possibilities. The paradox of an expert is that you close your mind to more opportunities. The more we get stuck in our current ways, the harder it is to open your mind to new ideas.

At age 29 I feel like I’m starting over. I know that I’m not truly starting over, but starting from experience. However, it still feels like so much of life is brand new to me. I spent the last 13 years of my life in a relationship. The last 13 years also working so hard. The last 13 years feeling so small, feeling like I had to hide myself for the sake of others. Pivotal, growth and identity forming years.

It took me a while, but my journey officially started October 2024 when I left my boyfriend and a month later left my job. I left my old life behind in pursuit of adventure, travel, financial freedom and ultimately getting to know myself. (Disclaimer - I’ve been able to travel, but still chasing the rest). Ultimately after being attached to people and jobs for so long I came out of it feeling alone, confused and so far removed from myself. I used it all as a distraction to keep myself busy. If I kept showing up for others I would never have to show up for myself. Did I actually have any idea who I am? What I enjoyed, what I wanted out of life?

I want those that are feeling behind, the “late” bloomers, the ones not afraid to completely start over. The ones that are scared of sacrificing everything you know for a new life ahead. Those that are getting so fed up with your current situation that you are on the verge of “destroying” everything you know to be true. The reality is I don’t think anyone has it truly all put together, but we can pursue the version of us that we can feel good about. The version of us that has the least amount of regrets as we approach the end of our lives.

I’ll try to post once a week. This is my first time so bear with me as I navigate this process!

I’ll be posting:

• Tools and habits I am trying and what is actually helping vs just fluff.

• My personal thoughts and anecdotes.

For now this is free so that you and I can navigate this journey of life together.

Thank you for showing up for yourself and being here with me.

Don’t be afraid to begin again.

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